Sentimental

 ...don't freak out.... don't freak out.... deep breath

If you've read my blog for any amount of time, you know by now that I occasionally have sentimental lapses that cause me to have emotional freak-out of nostalgia and sadness.  I'm fighting one of those RIGHT now.

I heard that my undergraduate college will be shutting down alumni emails.  Granted that most institutions do this right after graduation, but we were promised this account for life.  I used it in college and it was the only email that wasn't blocked my the filter in my Japanese school so it quickly became my main email.  Since it is shutting down on the 30th and nothing is really going on at work today, I decided to forward saved emails to another address.

I started with all the saved Shinto emails that I ammassed for my Master's thesis and beyond.  Then I went to the "favorites" box.  You know the story, emails from 1999-2009; old lovers and friends.  Emails from my grandma when she was well enough, emails from ex-boyfriends; some bitching me out, some congratulating me, some love letters, emails from friends I don't talk to any more (and miss), emails from friends congratulating me on getting engaged or announcing their own engagement or babies. 

Then suddenly "Homeward Bound" by Simon and Garfunkel comes on the Parisian radio I've been listening too.  I had to take a break.

Some emails will go down with the sinking email account.  Some I am re-saving.  Why do I hold onto the past so fiercely?

Does anyone else do this?

EDIT:  My Chinese horoscope for today

Here is your Daily Chinese Horoscope for Thursday, July 15

An old issue, project or relationship will see the end of the road today. Something is coming to an end in your life, but that's not necessarily a bad thing. If you have been dealing with a career, finance or domestic issue, it's likely you'll find some resolution at this time.

It's my email that's coming to an end!  My relationship with my email! ha ha ha ha ha   I guess it's OK-one less to check now.