But daily life...

So my dad is out of the hospital so yay!!!! I had a great trip to Japan and no HUGE disasters happened, though some minor ones. Overall it was great. Maybe this traveling around with friends thing isn't such a bad idea

Now I'm going to try and make myself actually work a lot of hours for the first time all year. I GOTTA make that money. I really wonder why I always feel so insecure about cash. Even now that I'm out of debt and have a little saved, I still feel like its all going to be swept away and I'll end up selling my TV on the street to pay my heating bill. Is it because I'm no longer married (come on, did I really feel financially secure when I was)? Know that there is no safety net with my parents? Grew up poor so it is now ingrained in me? I don't know. I'm always gearing up for a fight and push back on the rent increase, medical bills etc. My life is still a measure of frugality. No manicures, turn the AC lower, do the dogs REALLY need a sitter tomorrow night? etc etc etc. Does someone as paranoid as I am ever get comfortable?

Any how besides being a cheap, hardass bitch life is OK and I can't complain. The man in my life and I have some pretty good anniversary plans coming up and I got good news that I friend from real life is moving to Charlotte this summer! Yay! Friends that aren't long distance! Is that even a thing anymore?