crash!
So today was our official last day of class. We rehearsed graduation and then went to the airport. Oh! I have lots of cool photos to post (later). Then I went to this great Peruvian restaurant for lunch with friends and had a wonderful time, took a nap and then joined my friends for dinner and drinks by the pool.
Everything was going GREAT until I found out that my 3 favorite people that are going to be based in Charlotte with me all got an apartment together... without me. I talked to them about getting something too. Maybe I should have been more aggressive? But... I really had plans (I thought) to look for a place together with my one good friend.
So I don't know, I'm trying not to be a cry-baby about this, but I was already stressed out about finding a crash pad. Now the 3 people that were potential roommates are suddenly all together.
Now I have no potentials and I'll be looking on my own. I'm sure it will be fine, I always seem to land on my feet, but... it hurts being left out. I really wanted to live with at least one of my friends.
Sometimes I feel like because I always seem so happy and independent or whatever that people forget to worry about me. NOT the case. I'm just as nervous and insecure as everyone else.
OK-- just needed to vent. Everyone on the east coast is either asleep or out partying now and I can't really bring this up around here.
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Awww...hard to find a positive in that at moment, BUT (you knew there would be one) it gives you options (although maybe you wanted limitations to take off some of that stress around moving and setting things up in a new place?)...can you room&board for a little while? with some nice family? any Turkish connections? or JET connections? flower shop connections? (I know, maybe I'm reaching)
Try and work the connections you may not even know you have. Is there a someone at the airline who works on issues like this or are you on-your-own?
Good (sortof related) story: Heard (and saw) Bif Naked speak on International Women's Day here at my uni...some one thanked her for writing/singing "I love myself today (not like yesterday)" and asked her what made her write it. She said that she felt the complete opposite of what the song said, but that if you say the positive things long enough--loud enough--often enough maybe that's how you'll feel instead of that what that insecure voice that keeps going off in your head says...because we. all. have. that. voice.
I have faith that you will find a better place than you can imagine at the moment...and seriously, get some good, restful sleep.
awwww, that same thing happened to me at UF
it's so hard to feel left out!! you will get something worked out... and at least training is just about to over so you can get back to gainesville with real friends!!! wish i were there to welcome you back!!!
@aurore69 - Well said! Justgotspaid, take these words of wisdom to heart!
Sorry to hear that you got left out of the rooming situation. This has happened to me before, and I think you hit the nail on the head. It's because people see me as being independent and able to handle my own that I sometimes don't get included in rooming situations (because I'm the one that will go off someplace on my own for weeks with no fear).
That said, you will do fine! And you'll probably appreciate having a space to yourself. You'll be able to go over to their place and hangout, but also decompress/cry/veg/relax in peace when you need it. Plus, I'll have a place to stay when I come visit.
Don't forget to send out your new address, aka another shameless plug for housewarming presents. =D
Charlotte, watch out! JGsP is coming to town!
@Saferia - :)
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