Ohhh if only I could blog from my phone.... Maybe just maybe I would post and post photos. Alas. Too much has even happened to try and catch up. I had a wonderful and hot vacation in turkey with Buket. I got to meet her friend Yasemin at her wedding, spend time with her family, eat amazing food and got my hair dyed purple pink and blue.

Then I worked and worked and worked a million hours all August. Got into a disagreement with my stupid roommate so she is happily moving out on the 31st. I went on a whimsical roadtrip through eastern Canada with my man. I went camping, which hasn't been done in a veryyyyy long time and I met some starfish, thus completing another new year goal!

Well then, why the hell do I feel so stressed and miserable right now? Im back in my hometown trying to spend time with my dad, who was diagnosed with lymphoma. Meanwhile, my dog is back at home sick, throwing up, I don't know what's going on. Dream man is on vacation with his family. And I've realized that I'm probably never going to have a family. I'll never go on a family vacation. My parents are already practically too old to enjoy being grandparents much less ever help babysit. I can barely manage the dogs at this point and I'm stressed out every single day about who is taking care of them when I'm not home. Which is always- I'm never home in Charlotte. Charlotte is not my home. When I am home, I feel guilty that I should be visiting my old parents or my estranged friends who I miss. When I'm visiting these people I feel racked with guilt about the dogs. I cannot win.