June 2, 2015

• Have to admit

  1) I'll probably never blog like before, unless there is a magically place that feels like the blogging world of last decade- i.e. not the over saturated world of Facebook, Twitter, Tumblr, etc etc etc. Also- whatever this space is, I will need to do it from my phone. My life is just too mobile now and putting pics on this thing and writing is too time consuming and awkward. Awkward as in how the website works- not as in how I feel about my life. Honestly, I would love to go back to the old xanga days where my friends commented and checked for updates and I had all these travel pics and write ups and feelings... and random thoughts on pop culture. But, alas, it might not be again. I feel like I am writing in a post-apocalyptic online world. I'm the Mad Max of blogging... just doing it because I did it before and not even doing it well. And for whom? Myself? Maybe.

  2) I need to find a way to de-stress. This merger and all the constant bullshit that changing an entire airline consists of is just too fucking painful. My freedom is lost. The contract doesn't match our reality. Misinformation is spread on facebook because there are no actual resources to find information. I just have to get a day off for this wedding I'm in in two weeks. By GOD, I shall find a way.

  3) My latest travels were through Brussels and Budapest. I lost a friend, a lot of money, discovered that I love Budapest VERY much and got closer to two other friends... somewhat more epic in both failure and success than usual. I guess I have to let life events happen and I also have to accept and learn that not all my friends have to be my friends for life. Its OK to cancel your subscription on someone who is drastically shitty to me-- right!?

  

  4) Still in love, very in love. Very OK with that right now. He volunteered not only to be my date for this wedding, but also asked to go to church with me. I almost swallowed my tongue. Utter pleasant disbelief. I had to practically taser Kyohei to do this activities with me and then he ruined them by drowning the atmosphere in negative energy. It took me seven years of Sundays and 4 or so weddings to walk out on him. That someone I liked would ask to do these things with me is TOO.GOOD.TO.BE.TRUE.
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