everything changes.... all at once

 So, the last bastion of continuity from Japan-to Florida- to North Carolina is changing and leaving!?!  Why should I be surprised when everything else is in a constant upheaval?  I'm talking about Xanga, of course.  They have 15 days to raise $30K to keep the site up.  I am bracing for the worst. 

Gosh... all my memories on here.  So, I'll wait it out until July 15 when we see what happens, but I really, really, really want to make a planned exit strategy (see... we did learn something from our failed military tactics, eh?)

I will move somewhere and I KNOW you are thinking, "but justgotspaid, you hardly ever blog any more" and to that I say, "just wait until I have a desk in my new apartment!!  ha HA!"  I feel not-so-depressive lately.  I actually got on here today to write about the great work day I had yesterday to Grand Cayman where the other flight attendants were really cool and I got a giant bottle of Kahlua for only $12.  I'm hoping for more "island turns" as they are called.

So, I want to take you with me: @saferia @rveblade @sakatamon @atypicalindividual @beryberygood @coolnahalf

I know it sounds cheesy, but I don't want to loose my xanga besties.  And other people who check this sometimes (Eleanor and Mallory)

***Can we all migrate to the same place****  Can we, can we??  Rveblade?  Saferia?  Are you there?

WHERE DO WE GO??

I would like a blog place that

1) you can subscribe to and get emails on (with actual reliability) when someone posts

2) easy to upload photos

3) a decent mobile app

@atypicalindividual already jumped ship and went to Blogger.  I see that has an app and you can post photos, but it is run by google, who knows all my private shit as it is.  Translation, if I don't want you to find my blog, I don't want you to be able to find it by googling my name.  THAT IS THE LAST F$*& THING I WANT.  Also, how do you subscribe to people on blogger?  Get updates?  I need to get updates or else I will never check blogs, it sucks, but that is kind of how I am. 

HELP!!!!

"It's not much of a life you're living, it's not something you take, it's given"

 ...I'm not really sure how to feel about it.  Sometimes this job is like being on a vacation alone that you didn't plan and have no control over.  I spent the morning rushing to the airport in Charlotte, then laying around by the pool in Phoenix and the afternoon sleeping and crying.  I should be sleeping now, but I've never been able to nap when the sun goes down.  I can sleep all day, but as soon as the lights go out--I'm ON.  Some sort of nocturnal hangover from my cavewoman days, no doubt.  So I have another 2 hours to kill before I work the red-eye to... where?  Oh yeah, St. Louis.  Who gives a shit about St. Louis?  See-- I'm being negative right now.  God help the first passenger who complains about the cabin temperature tonight. 

I fly around and around and around hoping that one of the stops will be bring me to the one.  Tonight I got close, too close.  Within hours, within 18 miles.  I couldn't hide my disappointment this time.  It was probably a mistake to show my emotions. 

I'm starting to think that it might be impossible for me to have a happy romantic relationship.  Who can take me seriously with this insanely unpredictable schedule ?  Indeed, who was taking me seriously before? Also, now that I can almost go anywhere to meet someone, is it wrong to still want someone who will come to me?  At least half way? At least occasionally?