With all my complaining I forgot about my eye-anniversary. April 11th was one year since the surgery. Its been wonderful to be contact and glasses-free for the past year. But personally, I like to think of this as the event that marks the change in my life... from going to a person who was mostly happy just to sit at home and wait for her husband to get home with the car and dream about buying a home.... to now..... new everything; new job, new city, new life.
Too much change for one year if you ask me
playing through the sand
This is the part that sucks, I guess. The transition. I was in a poor mood most of the day today. I've been in Charlotte (my base) on duty, waiting to get a call for a flight for the past 3 nights. No luck. So I'm just here wasting time and NOT working. Meanwhile my friends are all at a birthday party together. I don't mind missing things as much when I'm working, but I'm not actually working and I can't go anywhere either. I hate the feeling that I am just wasting time, paying for a hotel room and not getting anything done.
I've been dragging my friends around town all yesterday and today trying to find a place to live. It is very frustrating. I really, really need to find a place here for my mental health though. On top of that, I got my first paycheck and it was a very small surprise and I got a casually worded email from the girl who replaced me at work that I'm not needed any more. Thanks for showing me NO respect, old workplace. And if I'm not needed then... why is there still all this work I'm getting?? And why wouldn't the boss email me. Just poor disrespect.
All these things add up and make me feel very disposable... in relationships and career wise.
ah, two tears in a buket
Here's a video that is perfect. Two Koreas and great lyrics; "I'd rather be alone"
