December 6, 2012
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oh, the little things
Last night in Ballet I got a compliment on my turns. Oh how rare! I'm really going to savor it. I must have been working hard because my feet muscles are sore today.
This is another bird on my Christmas tree. It's so cute; made of cotton and pieces of wood. I have a weakness for bird ornaments.**on another note, I seem to be having some sort of loneliness attack. I am acutely, acutely missing my friends. I wish I could gather them all together from all around the world (and country and town) and just have some big 10 minute group hug. Wow, I think I just teared up a little bit thinking about it. I really should get back to drinking more.
Just one more reason to get this flight attendant job. Also, I don't think I have the temperament for a desk-job. It allows me way to much time to sit here and think about things (and stalk people on facebook). I need a busy job with a bunch of people talking to me all day--probably why I like working at the flowershop so much-- business, friends and doing things with your hands.
Maybe it runs in the family-- my dad quit his bank job to work on the farm. Said he didn't like sitting all day. I REALLY understand that now.
And furthermore! When did I re-gain the ability to feel loneliness again? I thought I conquered that in 2009 on the pilgrimage. When did I fall from emotional self-sufficiency?
